niedziela, 31 stycznia 2016

Dobre wykonanie - co na to widz? (aktualizacja)

Rozpoczelismy dyskusje na temat mimesis. Stawiam kolejne pytanie - czesto mowimy dobrze zagralem - czy to sie przeklada sie na dobra opinie Widza o aktorze? Czy widz rozpoznaje nasze dobre wykonanie - ma podobna/taka sama opinie?

Zalozenia moje:
1. jesli "przezywam" naprawde, jest duzo wieksza szansa na komunikat niz jesli nie przezywam. 

opis: "Przezywam" w tym przypadku nie dotyczy TYLKO emocji, ale tez kontroli nad tekstem. Kontrola, o ktorej mowie, to taka o ktorej Irena Jun mowi u Becketta, kiedy chciala dojsc do tempa zalozonego przez samego dramaturga; dojsc do tego tempa pewnie nie jest trudno per se, ale dojsc do tego tempa komunikujac tresc - tzn myslac tekstem, tworzac go na nowo dla odbiorcy - o kolejne pojecie - tzn mowic "mama" ale z mysla o wlasnej matce (lub urojonej) i to wywoluje na nowo emocje - to jest dla mnie przyklad "dobrego" tworzenia na nowo - wiec dojsc do tego tempa tworzac "na nowo" to juz jest wyczyn. O takiej kontroli myśle, ktora popycha calosc i wywoluje u tworcy emocje. 
Mowi sie czesto to widz ma plakac, to mi sie wydaje dosc mocnym uproszczeniem - aktorzy czesto placza na scenie i ma to piorunujace wrazenie - nie zakrawa o sentymentalizm, jest czesto okrutne, albo zestawione z czyms okrutnym, kontekst sceny jest glebszy - przyklad: Garbaczewski, Teatr Stary, Krakow: z tylu idzie kobieta/cos tam gada (niewiele slysze)/idzie do przodu (w nasza strone - widzow) zaczynam slyszec, ze mowi o sile mlodosci i mlodej milosci (ona sama jest w wieku "sluszniejszym")/ idzie do przodu - coraz wiecej dostaje jej wzruszenia (mimo, ze ona jeszcze nie placze; mam dreszcze (ona jeszcze nie placze)/ jest juz bardzo z przodu - zaczyna plakac/ mowi "przepraszam panstwa" i schodzi. Co z tego rozumiem: po pierwsze, ze to bylo bardzo prywatne wyznanie; do drugie, ze rezyser nie zrobil z niej sentymentalnej baby tylko dal jej odpowiedni kontekst, zeby ona mogla to "wygadac". Wzmocnil te scene przez to, ze ona na koncu usmiecha sie mowi przepraszam i schodzi. Wrazenie (na mnie) piorunujace. Z tym nieplakaniem aktora - mysle o Darii, ktora placze nad Oskarem; albo o sobie placzacym nad Jozefem w misterium - oboje plakalismy nad soba tak naprawde - nie postac rozpacza, tylko my prywatnie. To ta prywata degraduje aktora - to znaczy pozwolenie sobie na rozczulanie kiedy nie ma na to miejsca w interpretacji (inaczej niz u Garbaczawskiego, ktory takie zadanie postawil aktorce). 
Placzmy sobie aktorzy - taka moja rada. Ale nie prywatnie. Dodatkowe pytanie - gdzie konczy sie prywata, gdzie zaczyna scena? Wiem jedno - u mnie po prostu wzruszylem sie Jozefem tak bardzo prywatnie, jego historia, tymi slowami ktore uslyszalem (po raz pierwszy) w utworze "nie boj sie Jozefie", ze nie moglem dalej grac innych emocji. To, mysle, na takie plakanie, my aktorzy, nie powinnismy sobie pozwalac. 

na wiecej mnie dzis nie stac... staram sie byc ostrozny


piątek, 29 stycznia 2016

We have not long to love - Williams

We Have Not Long To Love

BY TENNESSEE WILLIAMS
We have not long to love. 
Light does not stay. 
The tender things are those 
we fold away. 
Coarse fabrics are the ones 
for common wear. 
In silence I have watched you 
comb your hair. 
Intimate the silence, 
dim and warm. 
I could but did not, reach 
to touch your arm. 
I could, but do not, break 
that which is still. 
(Almost the faintest whisper 
would be shrill.) 
So moments pass as though 
they wished to stay. 
We have not long to love. 
A night. A day....

środa, 27 stycznia 2016

the end - Deconstructing Harry

Deconstructing Harry

not to forget.

the end.

mimesis

Nikomu nie trzeba tłumaczyć co to znaczy. Za Horacym - poeta jest jak pszczoła zbierajaca nektar z roznych kwiatow i przerabiajaca je na wlasny miod. 
Zawsze wierzyłem, że aktorstwo polega na znalezieniu dojscia do wlasnych atutow, wyrabianiu sposobu myslenia analitycznego, ostatecznie wlasny styl powstaje poprzez dojscie do coraz pewniejszej prawdy o sobie - o wlasnych cechach, barwach, stanach emocjonalnych, o umiejetnosci "dojscia" do siebie samego.  
... dzis w przeddzien roznych spraw, weryfikuje ten poglad. Mimesis, czyli upraszczajac nasladownictwo dotyczy aktorstwa, choc dla mnie (obecnie) w sensie innym niz powszechnie znane.  Nasladownictwo wymaga obserwacji - ergo (moje) rezygnowanie z nasladownictwa bylo bledem, bo koncentruje sie na ego nie poszerzajac go (ego) o te nieskonczone mozliwosci innych bytow.
(Mowie tu tylko o kopiowaniu metod innych ludzi. Powtarzaniu za nimi).
 Oczywiscie jest tu pewne straszne niebezpieczenstwo art for art's sake i tym samym zaniechania wszelkich dazen do wyrabiania wlasnego stylu. Ale umiejetna mieszanka obu moze znacznie przyspieszyc proces dojrzewania. Pisze to myslac o moich mlodych przyjaciolach, ktorzy zajmuja sie juz swoim teatrem. Miec mistrza, do ktorego sie ma zaufanie. Ja mialem szczescie miec kilku, ktorzy empirycznie udawadniali mi, ze mieli racje. (nie gadanie o czyms stanowi o tym jak Wielki jest mistrz). 
Ja za malo zajmowalem sie sztukami wizualnymi, i w ogole obserwacja. Szlismy ostatnio z Barrym gdzies, i on mowi "ale pterodaktyl", a ja mowie "gdzie". Ogromna rzezba pterodaktyla znajdowala sie nad moja glowa. Nie zauwazylbym. Przeszedlbym obok. BO za malo obserwuje. I za malo "patrze". Szukam w sobie. Cale zycie szukalem w sobie. I innych "uczylem" szukac w sobie... a "T A M POZA" jest Świat Mozliwosci. 

...Mozliwosci. Moze to banal, oczywistosc. Dla mnie nie. Przeczytalem dzis komentarz R.Saw. o tym, ze nic nie jest bialo czarne. On pewnie powinienbyl tez dojsc do tego wczesniej, ale wszystko ma swoj czas. Choc oczywiscie jednemu z jego kumpli (MW) to przychodzi trudniej (chyba). To co on (R.Saw) napisal, rozumiem bardzo dobrze od jakiegos czasu. Rozwijam w sobie te mysl. Daje to obiektywniejsze spojrzenie, klarowniejsza ocene.
Kazdy ma swoje NOWE przemyslenia. Niektore za pozno. 

PS. na zdjeciach uniwersytet w Seattle

czwartek, 21 stycznia 2016

przepracowanie

http://ninateka.pl/film/ojciec-i-syn-w-podrozy-marcel-lozinski

to wymaga oddzielnego komentarza. Dotyczego fikcji i rzeczywistosc.
Checi przepracowania rzeczywistosci. niewygodnych pytan i odpowiedzi.

musze to przemyslec. Warto to obejrzec, a wlasciwie Obserwowac.

Taka mnie naszla refleksja o 5 wieczorem w Stanach - teatr ma sens dopoki nikt z nas nie ma racji.

racje swoja znajdzie widz.

"nie boj sie tatusiu. bedziemy twoja pamiecia zewnetrzna". 1.00.10













PS. abstrahujac, cos mi sie dzis udalo. cos waznego. do zapamietania. tu jest szczescie. w tym miejscu (nie geograficznym).

środa, 20 stycznia 2016

Twelve years a slave.

Historia prawdziwa.
Bolesny film. Wchodzi do kanonu filmow opowiadajacych o opresji - sceny zmuszania do tanca u mnie przywoluja sceny hitlerowcow kazacych zydom robic to samo. Zmagania jednostki, zeby odzyskac wolnosc. Wszystko to rusza, choc film nie jest sentymentalny.
Jedna scena - kiedy bohater spiewa - nie ma wyjasnienia w filmie dlaczego (!) - przechodzi caly proces myslowy wiary w boga - ze bog go uwolni, ze da mu sile. Takie sceny mnie ruszaja maksymalnie.
Z tego samego powodu uwielbiam filmy z Robertem de Niro. Nie ma wyjasnien zbednych (jak zapowiedzi wydarzen w Whiplash) - aktor daje szanse widzom. Nawet w takich filmach jak "meet the fockers" (!). Nawet w tych filmach on tak precyzyjnie buduje sceny (!).

o tej scenie pisze. 



Poświatowska na nowo

http://ninateka.pl/audio/milczenie-roslin-halina-poswiatowska

Halina Poswiatowska (miała tylko 32 lata w momencie śmierci). Słucham tego po raz nie wiem ktory. Słysze w tym ludzi, głosy, wspomnienia, myśli. Przemyślana konstrukcja całosci i pojedyncze prawdy wykonawcow. Tak rzadko sie słyszy ludzi, ktorzy wchodza glebiej. Znani aktorzy, ktorzy slizgaja sie po wierzchu tekstu stylizujac glosem tresc... Ci, ktorzy dotkneli kiedys prawdy scenicznej, wiedza ze wykonanie jest gdzie indziej. W zrozumieniu i odnalezieniu siebie w tym. Nie ma w tym przesady co pisze. Wiem, ze tak jest. Nie ma to tez nic wspolnego z atrakcyjnoscia. Mozna prosciutko. Mozna tez atrakcyjnie. Ale mysl... mysl jest komunikatywna. Malo czasu na to poswiecamy. Za malo.
Te panie swietnie czuja sie w tych tekstach. To wielka przyjemnosc czuc ich chec zrozumienia, wnikniecia.
Pisze te slowa pod wplywem tej poezji.

wtorek, 19 stycznia 2016

The Martian

I am catching up on movies in my spare time - usually late in the evenings. I am watching all the 2014/15 movies.
I have seen the Martian (2015?) with Matt Damon and I liked it a lot - a simple story, the conflicts are there, nothing sensational about it, yet intruiging nad full of emotions - we get to see action but not an overabundance of it, just enough (and there are moments when we can get into the head of the protagonist). And the most thrilling of all, the concept - a man stranded on a planet! We all cheer for him, we hope he will manage to survive, overcome all obstacles and return home. This is an extension of an idea of being stranded on a desert island - a modern twist on that reality. And quite successful in my opinion. It is good entertainment.
directed: Ridley Scott



theater - the basics

I have come to terms with what I believe is a fundamental statement - I have no idea about my theatrical tradition. I mean, I have read books and I believe I know who did what.... but I do not understand the underlying priniciples behind doing theater.
I want to go back, and understand the need, and the basic forms.
These thoughts came to me while I was helping Barry organize his prints. I look at them, and I et a feeling, but it is pretty shallow. I have a deeper understanding of theatrical forms, but in truth, I should delve into it on a much deeper level.

I am writing an article about American Community Theater for a newspaper. It is interesting stuff.
Ps. The Guardian by Barry Herem

sobota, 16 stycznia 2016

Algorytmy kultury

Warto to obejrzeć.

http://ninateka.pl/film/how-culture-works-tymek-borowski

Tak, algorytmy.

trying out - food

I am glad my visit here is drawing to a close. I have learned much. The most important lesson is that "why not" - to take hold of opportunity when there is a chance. 
The same applies to food - today I have tried some Japanese cuisine. I was reluctant at first; but with every bite, I got more and more conviced that it was worth a try, because my buds were attacked by new combinations of flavor. That is the way I am - apparently it is a personality trait - I am unwilling to try. Well, that;s that. I just have to remember. 
The thing on the bottom right that looks like cabbage with wasabi (the green kind of thick sauce on the left) and sesame oil was exqusite. The black wrapping is seaweed.

czwartek, 14 stycznia 2016

The universe and personal desires

There was a type of energy in the Japanese attacking Pearl Harbor, as if the universe was giving this energy to them. The idea is that the energy they put behind them is always vital, crucial to achieve one's goals. What one needs is conviction. The belief in their cause gave them that energy; the same with Hitler - a great deal of commitment and hatred was put into trying to get rid of Jews. (unlike the people who do not have the power to act; are passive). He was also at the same time an embodiment of what people sought in these times - so a greater power was behind him. (if only hatred spurred him to do what he did)

...Incorporating this concept into one's own life - it is important to strive for your goal every day. Have this conviction.  Ask yourself every day "is this what I want." Revisiting this question should make it easier to develop in the direction of your desires.

This is what I have found in one of the metaphysical books of Barry Herem.

środa, 13 stycznia 2016

More of the photos (4)


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I got them from Clayton today. I met Johnny Depp in San Francisco. And later it was only getting more interesting...














Powerball

It so happens that two people from Poland wrote to me about it - powerball. There is 900.000.000 dollars to win. Who knows and why not.
One thing I am learning here is dont miss out on opportunities. They are knocking at your door.

wtorek, 12 stycznia 2016

usa - crazy trip - california to Everett - day two

The second day we went further north stopping to enjoy glorious sunlight and admire the amazing views of the ocean and the perfect balance of nature. It put a smile on our faces. We stopped so many times, because the next placed seemed to have an even better scenic view than the previous one. It was interesting to see the changing colors of the daytime. We started at 7 in the morning, and the colors were light and the trees had a distinct bright yellowish glare. 
Thanks to Clayton's urge we went to
another performance in a smaller city. I have to remember that moment as I apparently have the tendency to miss out on opportunities. I need to incorporate Clayton's view of life. He said "why not"... that is exactly what DeWayne used to say. This is who we are - entangled in each other's lives. We influence one another without realizing it. It was Clayton who introduced DeWayne to this idea of "why not". I hope I will talk myself into it. 
The performance was not very good,
BUT.. it was about stepping out of the house and the adventures the two clowns have. What a coincidence... All one needs is to step out... the performance ends with one of the protagonists saying "what a day"... that is exactly what me and Clayton said every day of the trip.  
We stopped in the Redwood National Park as Clayton is keen on natural phenomena. His excitement was contagious as I found myself exploring trees and looking with awe at the greenery. I enjoyed
listening to Clayton talking about nature. We talked about everything... it was so natural. Two friends enjoying their own company. We visited the point arena lighthouse where Forever Young was filmed. We went 300 feet below Highway number one to a cave filled with sealions. The particular smell of the animals, and the sound - this I will remember. 
Finally, the day was drawing to a close, and the last rays of sun hit the horizon... we really wanted to take some last photos, but we were in the center of a city. Clayton decided to stop at some private property and it was just right as the sun disappeared a minute later. We were very fortunate that day. 
oh, the beauty of it. When I was in Hawaii I saw some beautiful landscape, but was unable to cherish it. This just filled me with joy and hope. The world was whispering into my ear "everything will be all right". 
We arrived in Everett really late, but not tired. I have not slept till 4 o'clock, but I do not want to remember the return and what happened then. I want to retain the images from the day before.

poniedziałek, 11 stycznia 2016

USA - crazy trip from San Francisco to Everett, day 1

Clayton Handy took me on a trip from Chico, California to Everett, WA. A three day trip by car. First, we went down south to San Francisco. What a magnificent city. Unbelievably beautiful. We entered the city crossing the Golden Gate Bridge. I had a wonderful thought. A Polish guy like me in San Francisco. What an amazing thing to do. The only thing missing was somebody to share it with. We went to the science museum which included an aquarium and we were able to see all the fish up close. We saw the rainforest and the natural habitat.
Then, Clayton announced that he bought tickets to a theater in San Francisco.
Really expensive tickets. I felt bad about it, but I was grateful at the same time. So we saw "stage kiss" a really funny comedy with a twist. I had a chance to talk to the director who said she had not talked to anybody about such details for a long time (as I have expressed my opinions) and that I should send her an email. (I surely will).  What attracted my attention was the sheer confidence with which she stood up for a standing ovation. And she stood up way before other people did. I would never do that in Poland. But having thought about it, she was right to applaud her actors. To give them the confidence of being on their side.
I have lived in humility for a long long time. There should be joy in acting and theater activities. I understand it now. I am beginning to embrace it now. It was inspiring, it was new. I was happy and grateful to Clayton.
We ended up in beds in a B&D. What strikes me and suprises me is that Clayton and I have felt that we have been friends for years while it has only been weeks. It was DeWayne that connected us. And I hope we will be forever connected. I loved his family. Emry (the youngest) liked me so much that she enjoyed being carried around by me.
I went to bed with a smile. A smile of a kid I once was. But somehow lost it while living.

A final thought of the first day: DeWayne used to quote this whenever we sallied forth on an adventure -
The road goes ever on and on
down from the door where it began
and I must follow if I can
down from the door where it began.
The road goes ever...